Thursday, April 11, 2013

10 Day Writing Challenge: Day One

A dear friend did this 10 day writing challenge and I have decided to do it as well. Here it goes.

Day One:

Ten things you want to say to 10 different people:

1. I adore you in more ways then I ever thought possible. Your laughter and kindness creeps into the hurt and heals the aches in the deep recesses of my heart.   I find in you possibilites I have only imagined and at the same time I so have been longing for. However, I have been scared enough to still keep you at a distance in fear that you are a mirage. You entered my life at a time of immense emotion and change. In the midst of it you have been steadfast in character and love. A love that inspires me. With desires that intimidate and excite me in ways I have never felt. You have seen me at my worse and offered genuine love. Everypart of me has wanted to say "Yes! Yes! Yes!"  more times then I can count. When the fear no longer holds me back, will you be able to take the intensity of the love, joy, and desires I intend to offer? I have only shared a small part of my world with you, are you ready for much, much more? Because I think I want to have it all with you.

2. I still love you and always will. The painful tinge of the reality that we could never be will always linger but I know we will both heal. I wish you were ready for what I offered you. I also wish I was smart enough to see you weren't before it hurt us both so much. I forgive you.

3. I miss you often. Even though I know leaving was the right choice. We both have grown and still have been able to stay friends. I know the sting of the dream broken was immense for you. And will always make us being friends even harder. I am sorry for that. Because you are a wonderful man and I miss having you in my life in a more substantial way.

4. You will always by my joy. I support whoever you are and choose to be unconditionally. Be free.

5. You are such a lil man now. I wish for you all the wonders that this world can offer. Embrace it. Be whoever you can be.

6. You have loved me through so much. I know I am still angry at you and I am sorry for how that plays out in our relationship. But I do thoroughly appreciate and love you at the same time. I know you have done more then most and I am glad you are in my life again. It is not perhaps the way both of us would have liked. But I am grateful.

7. My friend I am sorry for my selfishness and arrogance. Life dealt you a raw hand that I deserved much more then you. Our lives intertwined in such a bizarre twist. You were my friend and I yours. We both did regrettably things.  I forgive you. I hope you will someday forgive me too.

8. I wasn't her .. the one you wanted. You always said I was something important and special though. I wish your words and actions said the same thing. When will you embrace truth and face me. I am here and I will never go away, because I am the reality. Thank you for at least admitting in your own way your faults. It is at least a start. I will be here waiting.

9. You have been a true friend; I should tell you more often.. I am sorry I couldn't live with the way things were.  I love and miss you.

10. If I could turn back time I would have never done it. I was a child, as were you. I am sorry for my part. I wish I can make your life less affected by it. I wish you could look at me without remembering.




Monday, April 8, 2013

Quotes and Poems

I collect quotes and poems . Here are some of my favorites.

Enjoy:

In a place called Somewhere
There lived happiness
Somewhere was a place of Paradise
But one day from Nowhere
Came Sorrow to the place called Somewhere
Happiness asked Sorrow to leave
The place called Somewhere
Sorrow went back to Nowhere
And then occupied the hearts of people
Who are kind and compassionate
As they never refused anybody a place to stay
So if you feel the pain
Which a person who has lost his mind bears
If your heart aches when you see a tear in someone's eyes
If you are ready to accept such a person and help him
You can be sure
That you have sheltered sorrow in your heart.
~Tito Mukhopadhya, Severely Autistic Teenager from India

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
~Rūmī

Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.~Rūmī

"Make the best use of what is in your power, and take the rest as it happens." ~ Epictetus

‎"Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering you own imperfections, but instantly set about remedying them - every day begin the task anew." ~Saint Francis de Sales

"Your beliefs don't make you a better person your behavior does" ~Unknown

"Each of us is many persons.
To me I'm who I think I am,
But others see me differently
And are equally mistaken." ~ F. Pessoa

"Action is the antidote to despair" ~Joan Baez

First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do.
~Epictetus

“Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan "press on" has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race”
~Calvin Coolidge

"'Let yourself become living poetry." ~Rūmī

"Surely the one thing which can bring about a fundamental change, a creative, psychological release, is everyday watchfulness, being aware from moment to moment of our motives, the conscious as well as the unconscious."
~J. Krishnamurti

"As long as we believe we are bodies, we don't have to know that we are infinite, our cells without limit, like music itself, free." ~Bryon Katie

‎"Let every step you take upon the earth be as a prayer." ♥ ~Black Elk, Lakota Sioux

"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion." ~Dalai Lama

"There is no such thing as a simple act of kindness; every single compassionate act sends ripples across the universe" ~Unknown

The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.
- Friedrick Nietzsche

What else is love but understanding and rejoicing in the fact that another person lives, acts, and experiences otherwise than we do…?
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"Put away your pointless taboos and restrictions on sexual energy – rather help others to truly understand its wonder, and to channel it properly."
~God, channeled by Neale Donald Walsh

“Whenever a taboo is broken, something good happens, something vitalizing. Taboos after all are only hangovers, the product of diseased minds, you might say, of fearsome people who hadn't the courage to live and who under the guise of morality and religion have imposed these things upon us.”
~ Henry Miller

"And he said, 'Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain." ~Kahlil Gibran

"What is peculiar to modern societies is not that they consigned sex to a shadow existence, but that they dedicated themselves to speaking of it ad infinitum, while exploiting it as the secret." ~Michel Foucault

"If every time you engage in a sex act, you go into a confession box, you will never accept your own sexuality." ~ George Weinberg

"Understand that sexuality is as wide as the sea. Understand that your morality is not law. Understand that we are you. Understand that if we decide to have sex whether safe, safer, or unsafe, it is our decision and you have no rights in our lovemaking."~ Derek Jarman

"Being an INFJ is like carrying around an enormous secret. We sit alone, surrounded by a crowd of people, and not a soul in the room suspects the greatness that lies within us." --Meridian @ INFJ CAFE

"I am an optimist, unrepentant and militant. After all, in order not to be a fool an optimist must know how sad a place the world can be. It is only the pessimist who finds this out anew every day." -- Peter Ustinov